Offense - One

I have changed.
Nearly everything about me has changed in the past two years.
Everyone that I know has seen that change.
Everyone I know has told me that it is an improvement.
Except for one.
FUCK that one.

That one has spent years making everyone around her feel as bad about themselves as she does.
That one does not understand the concept of personal joy.
That one does not love others, as she does not love herself.
That one only knows greed.
That one only knows hate.
FUCK that one.

That one does not appreciate my new life, as she never appreciated me.
That one cannot understand closeness and sharing.
That one makes me feel inadequate.
That one makes me feel powerless.
That one makes me feel like dying.
FUCK that one.

That one no longer has any power over me.
That one cannot defeat my resolve.
That one is not my master.
FUCK that one.

An old friend of mine told me "I was waiting for this to happen. I could see the beast behind your eyes." He knew I was drowning myself in hate, that I was going to explode. I have spent too long of my all too short life wallowing in self hate. I will not go back. That one insists that I've found someone else. Yes, I have found someone else... ME. I have discovered that there is an amazing human being inside this body you've been abusing for the last decade. There is someone here who has been sacrificing himself for YOUR happiness. There is a person here who has seen a taste of who he could become. That person has finally decided to live.

Fuck you, Mary.

The Angry Man